Sentiments

Although this habitat we call earth is wonderfully created, many splendid things humans appreciate only when it is too late for recognition, sometimes never recognized at all. I was lucky because I have had the chance to see what others could not see boldly by naked eyes. For this forever that I need no particular boyfriend to share with, many thoughts flourished in my veins and learned the lessons finally by heart and here I will tell you a story of forever that was too short for me. A forever nobody knows resides in me.

She is a good friend to me, she is someone who I love to share my throughput journey towards my life exploration activity. She is someone I once hated for being loved and adored by many and now she is someone I could love forever for being with me through black and white. She’s someone I could talk flinty things with, she’s the opposite character I never lived with and she is a part of my forever.

One waking day she called me asking for a walk together, maybe she has something to ask me but wanted to talk about it personally, it’s a nice day to begin because I’m in the mood to share to her my latest life abouts. We decided to meet somewhere near our previous college campus, conversation began and we talk from candid stories to the very serious ones. I never saw her confused about life until that day, wonders came to me of what kind of solitude take her normal day attitude out of her spirit. I’m not the patient kind of person but I waited til our topic gets there.

She asks me a sudden question as we’ve been keeping pauses long enough, I think we came to reach the point of losing stories to tell she asks me “If all your riches were to take away from you what among those things would you like to remain with you?” taken aback with that question I came to think of the things that I wanted to remain with me. I came to three final answers. Happiness, Peace of mind and Time. Upon telling her my answer I saw blank emotion in her face I guess she’s expecting me to tell her material things, but it came as not what she expected, by the way she is not just the one who’s bluntly moved from that answer, I was also amazed on how I come upon with those combo. My answers were followed by her quick eyebrow rising and questioning why. Long pause surrounded us as if there’s no one around when the place was way too crowded at midday.

I simply answered her that I came to that because I lost those three along the way and it hurts that when  it had passed you by you can’t buy it back to what it was once been. I sounded clearly, I was fascinated by my answer and it hit me too. It was a realization I never thought one day in my 20 years of life would come out straight from my mouth. I was moved by my answer because it was so true. So just true.

She told me to elucidate her on what I meant by my answer, I bet she didn’t see my way to it so I decided to cite her my reason of what precisely I mean of those things. Here are those given

For Happiness

I wanted happiness to remain with me because it’s very hard to find, its something you could never ask anyone to give you because happiness comes from your within and if you once lost it you have to search everywhere to find it but then again it’s not the same happiness you’d been into not even similar to the previous one. Like when you found someone who loves you back its so rare to find that feeling that both of you squarely love each other back, there’s happiness in that in a way. Who would want that happiness to end right away? Also happiness feel appreciated, happiness in the arms of those person closest to you. You know you can have material wealth all you want by just working but you could never easily buy happiness with all the money that you have.

For Peace of Mind

It comes when you start being actually contented with life, when you learn to make peace with those persons who know you can never deal with. Being human makes it harder to have it because there’s no contented human in this place. So its very hard to obtain it. Peace of mind comes with acceptance and trust without it there is no guarantee that you will have the right kind of peace that you’re looking for.

For Time

When it passes you by there is no more chance of getting it back, whether how large the amount of wealth you trade for it, it cannot bring back the lost events, memories and person you’ve lost on that particular time in your watch. Though it came with the same number every day the very moment that time brings you to spend wisely, you cannot bring back when you mistook the chance for a wrong decision.

Among the three it has the most powerful effect in your life, either to lead you to regret of lost times or to bring you security to obtain your goal in life by means of grabbing opportunities time brings along.

Seems she had seen my wave, she told me that I came just right in time to enlighten her troubled persona that I came right to help her out of her vicious dream of perfect life. While she was telling me praises on my explanation I could not help but contain my curiosity of the next thing she said which is in this form “Do you ever believe in forever?”

This friend of mine seems to be really troubled of heading her life to forever, so I decided to tell her my idea of shot forever that I learn the hard way too. Forever is not time, forever is journey it is how you wanted your life to end and to start when you realize that your decision wronged you. Forever is the in between of now and yesterday. Forever is in your hand because there is no truth to the thoughts that forever exist in form that it will never end, and I believed that there is only short glimpse of forever.

Maybe she was to busy figuring out of what I meant by that, I waited for her to demand me to explain but she didn’t, she just bowed her head and let a leap of cry in my shoulder. I understand now. My friend, She was trying to look for her forever.

I ended our conversation with a hug. For the first time she hugged me back tight. She said she wanted to converse with me again maybe by that time she’ll be the one teaching me of what it is she learned in her forever. We parted way back to home with hopes of continuing our life with forever staying grounded in our hearts.