Sentiments

collegiate feud: A LESSON LEARNED

Change according to the dictionary means to give completely different form or apperance.

commonly cited as different from the usual.

by the month of april, i started to change, emotionally and mentally, drastic change occurs to me. I realized i turn out to some point of my life without early warnings but the sudden outrtburst of my imperfect human side.
I am not considering that "time" to make my emotion state a change right away, i hardly felt good about my surrounding, involving persistent EX FRIENDS. that was the start, along the way i felt relieved that i don’t need to mask anything to myself, i can move freely without worrying of whatever comes around, it was sort of a good feeling like that saying, I HAVE A LIFE NOW.
Then I thought everything is just the way it should be. I collected all the bruises i got and move on.A step forward.

_Defense Week_

It hurdled my stomach, i was mad to every direction of my life, i wanted to curse everyone i see, but that was to shameless to do, i kept myself on one side and still look at all that was happening through the week. A shattered glass in the sand where there was no hope of jolting back. Truly i woke up one morning and realize that change is unescapable, whether you like it or not you will change no matter how hard you avoid it. It come fast to those people with full trust to those around them,when suddenly all around you bite you hard. Even if you don’t want to force yourself, you cannot escape the fact that you wanted to stand for where you were bruised and shattered. I HATE THE WAY IT HAPPENED.

_I CAN NO LONGER TRUST YOU_

I am the person who confide easily, i can give my trust to you without doubting. But the line is, you can easily destroy that trust even with the simplest thing you do.

to ALL MY EX FRIENDS, i don’t label friends unless i came to totaly loose my patience, my trust and finally my admiration to you, whoever you are, you know it by yourself. YOU HAVE TAUGHT ME TO NEVER SHARE ENOUGH OF WHAT I KNOW, AND TO KEEP EVERYTHING TO MYSELF, YOU TAUGHT ME WELL NOT TO TRUST YOU ANYMORE.

Thanks for that i know now how to look at your nerve and just have proven to myself that there is no perfect friendship rather there are more stupid friendship scattered around me.